Thursday, June 10, 2010

MOM what do you wanna eat?





I'm bringing SEXY DUCK back tonight!!! ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Because i was so tired of studying, i took random pictures

whole pile of work undone.

camphor


See that? Do you see any similarities?




I hate people who waste their time clicking away that stupid camera button. What's so nice about it?

They pose in front of the camera like idiots, washing their time down the drain. Problem is, I find it hard to explore that complex little nutbrain in them, trying to figure out why cam whoring is as addictive as nicotine.

Sources claim that they get instant gratification. But I don't. It is ANNOYING. I have nothing against people taking pictures, but if they begin clicking away that camera button for the 20th time, that's cam whoring. It's the third sin after Miley Cyrus and Justin Bieber.

If you can't accept the painful fact that you're NOT photogenic, cam whoring isn't the last alternative you must or should resort to. For example, me. I'm not photogenic, that's why I avoid taking unnecessary pictures.

Define the term 'necessary'. Facebook is rife with stupid youngsters cam whoring in toilets. Is that necessary? Is it necessary to have the same picture all over your photo album? Are you trying to appeal your stalkers?

Are you living in the delusion that people are obsessed with you?

Sunday, June 6, 2010

you don't know how much it hurts

i live in misery.
today i was so tired, sick of the arrogant attitude of ugly Malaysians, sick of their ignorance about the importance of punctuality. my productivity time was greatly consumed by selfish individuals whose lives reigned by hedonism-- their insatiable thirst for worldly enjoyment drove me up the wall.

As if money grew in their pockets.

I was on the verge of a severe emotional breakdown, and i certainly did breakdown. My heart was burning. I traveled back to the past, back when I was an insecure, shallow and sensitive young lady, searching for attention, appreciation and respect. I was foolish. I did stupid things. Unassuagable guilt compelled me to repent, and I changed. But they brought it back. They ruined everything.

I can't remember- but my mind could not, (or perhaps, a more appropriate word, should not) conjure any nostalgic memories. Did i step out, did I endeavor to fit myself in their social circle? Was there an empty slot which could fit my volatile temperament? Was it a thick sense of obligation monitoring the relationship?


It hurts everytime i think about it. The feeling is bitter.

I live in ignorance- I don't want to know how they are, where they are or if they ever existed.
But do they sense the hostility? Do they sense the gap between? Time has made it deeper and wider, and this is the fact I am trying to ignore.